Thursday, October 15, 2009

What brings me comfort...







As my sweet Halena was leaving for school yesterday morning, I snapped a few pictures of her. I am always struck by a moment of sadness tugging at my heart when she leaves in the morning...

It's hard to know that she will be out of my sight and away from my protection for so long...

I wonder if I have given her what she needs to face the sometimes cruel and difficult world around us...




A nagging feeling stayed with me as I went about my usual routine yesterday. I'm not sure why, on this particular day, I was feeling more uneasy than on others, but none-the-less, the feeling stayed with me until I laid down last night to go to sleep.

You know that time, when you first lay your head on your pillow, and your thoughts and worries of the day are all swirling around in your head? Well, this is when it hit me...

I've taught her to pray.

Yes, pray. That is the thought that brought a wash of relief over me. Simple...yes. But small...no.

I have given my child, my children, the ability to seek comfort and advice from the greatest source there is...and that is what finally brought me peace as my day was ending...


Tracey

64 comments:

Reflections from the Stone Nest said...

That uneasy feeling hits and stays sometimes, doesn't it? Oh, what a wonderful thought of relief when you remembered you had taught her to pray. I don't know what I would do without prayer. Your daughter is adorable ~ quite a little beauty!

Blessings to you both,
Kitty

Kasey said...

you didn't mention you were uneasy as we were drinking wine and munching on cheesecake!

NicNacManiac said...

Your daughter is adorable and those shots you took are precious!!
xOxO Nerina :)

The Little Red Shop said...

Tracey, God bless you and your beautiful family!

: )

Julie M.

ps Cute cap!

Liz said...

You have such a beautiful daughter, and her name is beautiful as well!

paige said...

~~beautiful~~

Jackie said...

Beautiful! I love that!

Mo said...

she is adorable ! that's a cute post !

well, i realize im a lucky frenchie leaving so close to Paris...except that i moved to Stockholm 3 weeks ago and i miiiiiissssss it !

Tracey said...

Amen to that! "I lift my eyes to the hills, from whence cometh my help." What a beautiful daughter you have! She reminds me of mine. :)

Tracy is ... Loving Pretty Things said...

Trace - I know exactly how you feel - it is that amazing gift of motherhood that gives us that twinge of extra emotion to keep us awake at night.

I don't know what I'd do without our family's relationship with the Lord. It definitely helps me fall to sleep at night - a peaceful sleep!!

Hugs to you - thanks for your email earlier - I am doing so well and I know it is because of an amazing network of women in Him ... including YOU!

OMG - I am mailing your prize today - HONESTLY ... so hard to get to the post office these days!

xoxoxox

mandiegirl said...

How sweet! I love her little hat, and what a pretty name! :)

AshleyR said...

Such a sweet post and a precious gift.

Anne Marie said...

bravo........that is exactly what we all have to emulate.....

Draffin Bears said...

Hi Tracey,

I know how you feel.
Our children are so precious and I remember the first day both my kids started school, I felt very emotional and had to wipe some tears away when driving home with my husband.

Your daughter is lovely and has a beautiful family.
I loved your story and thanks for sharing.

Have a happy weekend
Hugs
Carolyn

Lemonade Makin' Mama said...

What precious reassurance. How flat life would be without it.

(and chocolate. Life would be very flat with out chocolate, though I'd say prayer is more important...)

Blessings,
LMM

Karyn Bernard (French Charming) said...

Your daughter is gorgeous. Such a lovely post and what a lovely and caring mom you are. She's fortunate to have you and your gift of teaching her to pray.

God bless!

Mary said...

beautifully said... ~mary~

Tattered Goods said...

I know just how you feel... I let my anxiety get the best of me at times as well... And I think you know what gets us/me through it ;) Our heavenly Father... It is so nice that we are able to go to Him and pray for peace and serenity. And to ask that these... burden of feelings are released from our minds and are surrendered to Him. Enjoy your day and live out loud :).

Sheila

Carolyn said...

You captured lovely shots of your beautiful daughter.You have taught her well!
Carolyn

Backyard Candle Co. said...

Nothing like the power of prayer! I'm so happy that brought you peace!! Thanks soooo much for the order too, I was excited to see it was you! Have a great night!!

C'est Moi, Julie Marie said...

Hello Tracey, what a wonderful mother you are, and such a beautiful daughter... I do believe you have taught her well... Bisous... Julie Marie

Simply Me Art said...

Hi Tracey, She is Beautiful, what a wonderful thing to teach a child. I am not a very religious person, I do believe in God and have definitely have passed that on to my kids. I have tried to teach them that there is a higher power and to believe in something or someone. BTW, your kids names are Beautiful too. Happy Thursday, Thank you for sharing that too, Jamie

June said...

Beautiful post Tracey! You've given her the most important tool, and she will use it a lot in her life. She is such a beautiful girl, just like her mother!
Hugs,
June

the wild raspberry said...

i LOVED this post tracey...you have provided the most important thing in your sweet girls life...faith.

how wonderful.

have a great weekend~
chas

Wizard of Was said...

Tracey,
Wow! What a beautifully put post!
I came here thinking I was going to see some of your week-end projects...But I am leaving with such beautiful words ringing in my mind! Nicely put!
My best
Gale

koralee said...

ahhh...this is such a mother thing...it does not ever go away...even when they are married. I know my oldest just got married(19 years old) and I still worry my little heart out...but now I have a new son in law to worry about too! xoxoxoxo

Ticking and Toile said...

Tracey,
You are soooo right! We've taught our kids to pray and then sometimes we are the ones who forget, huh? I had a very similar experience when a family friend, but only 19 yrs old, took all my 3 girls out in her new convertible.....I totally panicked after they left...I was losing it, calling hubby etc...couldn't shake my uneasiness---- until I knelt down and prayed to my Heavenly Father to please help me to know whether I am just being an overly protective mom... or if I really have reason to panic. A total sense of calm came over me and I knew everything was going to be fine! Oh how we need to rely on more than the "arm of flesh"

Beautiful post & beautiful daughter!

Shellagh

Nora said...

I love that post. Pray is powerful. Probably better then you being there with her. She will learn to rely on the Lord through prayer. What a valuable lesson.

*The Beautiful Life* said...

Sooo sweet, Tracey. And sooo true!!

I always heard that no matter how old they get, you never stop worrying... Yep. It's true, but it's all good. :)

Thanks for such a sweet post!!

Ruth

Susan said...

Your post reminded me of the time I was freaking out about something and my 4 year old walked into the room and said, "Mom I think you need to pray."
I was humbled and grateful that she, herself, understood the value and the gift of prayer and offered such sage advice.
It has been a long time since I thought about that. Thanks for sharing your heart.
Blessings!

Beach Vintage said...

This post rings true to every mother. It reminds me of that ABBA song " Slipping through my Fingers" - Great song

Florence said...

What a beautiful gift you have given your children, some times we have to remind them of the source where they can go with any of their worries and know that he hears. My children are grown now and I hope that they are passing this on to their children. Have a great weekend coming up. Florence

Heather Cameron said...

My daughter is two years old now and I get overwhelmed by feelings of angst. It can be consuming, but I try to snap out of it and enjoy the time we have together. Maybe it is because I had her late in life and it was not an easy process - I'm more fearful?? I think in the end it is a mother-thing. Your daughter is lovely.

Julie@beingRUBY said...

HI Tracey
I don't have children myself but felt [i imagine] similar worry over my nieces and nephew. I still cannot watch certain child actors that evoke that feeling.

Your daughter has a sweet soul that shines through in her photos.

Have a lovely weekend. x Julie

chair up said...

I reckon our girls would be great friends if they ever met up.
AMEN to your post...there is so much comfort knowing that God hears and cares and when we can't be physically with our children, He is right there watching over them.
What a great mum you are Tracey!
Angex

Martha said...

She is BEAUTIFUL Tracey...and from when I met you...I know you must be doing everything right...you have given her a great gift...already...

Firefly Hill said...

Tracey...she is a beautiful girl. A picture says a thousand words ...she looks confident and happy. You have given her that.

annie

Ali said...

Sometimes it is hard to think that we cannot have control over everything in our children's lives. We do have to take comfort in putting them in God's hands. It is still hard though! Have a great day!

Leah C said...

I think every mother knows just how you feel...we worry, that's what we do. We love our children; we do our best to protect them. And we pray:)

The Flying Bee said...

Tracey...she is beautiful. Your words couldn't be more true...He gives us peace. Knowing that you have taught her to pray is something to find peace in, because we can't always be with our children at all times, but we know they can call on the One who can be with them all the time.

Sweet post.

xo,
Adrienne

Autumn said...

The most comforting of thoughts. I hope I'll teach my children the same thing...as well as to be generous.

Beth Gales said...

Great picture and such soothing words!

Jeni said...

What a beautiful post. As a mother I have felt the same way. My two boys like to ride their scooters now to school and it's the hardest thing for me to let them do. Prayer is a beautiful thing. I love the photos of your daughter. Very pretty girl.

paperhill said...

sweet pictures, i get that feeling often. i tend to worry too much but prayer can help us through, it does for me and hopefully my kids remember that too. beautiful post. enjoy your weeeknd too :)

farmerjulie said...

Oh Tracey, That is beautiful! I feel the same way. Halena looks about my daughters age. She is beautiful. and yes your taught them to pray! Good for you! That is all we can do! God Bless!
xoxo Julie

The Vintage Modern Girl said...

Helena is lovely! And this is such a much needed reminder...the older I get, the more overwhelmed and worried I get...but knowing I can go to God with anything is the only (and the greatest) comfort I have found. so thank you!

Dreaming In Pink With Roses said...

Hi Tracey! Love your post! I have those same moments... Sometimes even more now that 2 of mine are not living here anymore.. It makes it worse if I try to call or text & cant reach them.. I do have that peaceful assurance though.. that they are always in his hands..

Your daughter is beautiful! Love that pic of her blowing you a kiss.. so adorable.

Thanks so much for the suggestion on the crowns! I had already ordered a couple from Heather. Very pleased with them! Wisteria is now carrying some too. Hope you guys have a wonderful weekend! Stay warm & Cozy! Blessings ~ Teresa

enchanting cottage said...

The power of prayer is such a blessing.Thank-you for stopping by my blog and saying hi because if you had not then I would not of known about your beautiful blog.
Blessings,
Ginger

Berlin Deluxxe said...

As a mother, I know exactly what you mean, exactly what you feel- even though my son is a teen...

Lovely blog.

A.Love said...

this post was really sweet.
the images are gorgeous--your true heart as a mom really got me-- I know my son doesn't walk out the door yet, but I've found that all I want to do is lay next to him before he sleeps--crawl into the crib and hold him tight before he goes OUT into that great big world...but I too can teach him to pray!

Julie said...

Oh Tracey, this is so powerful! I was worrying about the same thing with my oldest yesterday. I can't possibly protect her from everything even though I wish I could. But I have taught her to pray. And I need to encourage her and remind her of how powerful it is. Thank you!

stefanie said...

what a sweet post, i know exactly how you feel, there is something about your little girl that you feel you have to protect them more.

{kara} said...

what a sweet post and a what beautiful daughter!

Jeanneoli said...

Such a sweet post. Your daughter is so pretty.

LuLu said...

you have taught her the most important thing she needs...
xo,
LuLu

Jenns Three Graces said...

If you flip back in my blog - you'll see I understand - my sons are 31 and 28 - I blinked my eyes.... but I understand. When my eldest son got on the bus for kindergarten my grandmother ( my dad always called her "The Queen of the Crepe Hangers" ) said "these are his first steps away from you" and I just couldn't believe how my heart felt! This tug! But I've raised them to have a faith and to be good men so.... mostly I think it was a gift from God and from within them as part of God's grace. Aren't we truly blessed? Jennifer jennsthreegraces@blogspot.com

Farmgirl Paints said...

What better gift can you give!! Great post Tracey...I'm sure that knowledge put your heart right at ease.

Gypsy Brocante said...

You're a good Mom, Tracey ... I think I'll take this lesson from your book ... thank you ...

xo
Jill

BellaColle' said...

Your daughter is darling!..and you've given your children the best Gift ever!! Hope you are having a wonderful week so far.
XO
~Christine

Dawn said...

Love your soothing words...and your daughter is a true Beauty~

Anne~fiona and twig said...

Absolutely awesome post. I can tell you're a good mom just by looking at that gorgeous daughter of yours and reading your heartfelt words.
Pax,
Anne

BellaRosa said...

Your daughter is just beautiful..like her mama. besos, Rose

BellaBliss said...

The greatest Source!!! Comfort for sure...
(all the pics in your blog posts are pretty comforting as well LOL ;)

maryboys said...

tracey...life has been especially difficult lately, so i came over to browse through your blog with so many calming and beautiful photos. when i read this post - i just had to link you to this song that i have long loved. (in fact, it was a part of my slideshow at my wedding 14 years ago) maybe you are very familiar with this song and its lyrics already and if so - just know that this beautiful post caused me to go listen to it again. a good reminder of what's important...even though it doesn't address the spiritual side of things; it's the heart of a mother! here you go: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJ2hoghGh24

warmly,
mary